You can't be cavalier about it, that's the lesson chronic illness teaches you about health.

Again. And again. And again.

I spent the first 41 years of my life powering through crisis; throw enough coffee/nicotine/man-hours at it, and there's no problem you can't solve. I've spent the last three unlearning those bad habits.

It was a sunny, crisp day here in L.A., and I had all kinds of ideas about how I was going to spend it.

I ended up spending most of it resting. And reading. And playing a little piano. And resting some more. Finally, I gave up all notions of productivity and headed over to The BF's for a little,

Well, there are some things that even tired people with chronic illnesses like to do.

I wanted to do a lot of things today that I didn't, including pour coffee on the problem. But the days of doing that are behind me.

Here's hoping there are some of those better days ahead of me.

xxx c

Photo of my (pink & healthy) colon taken in September, 2004

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